So school started and sorry, I haven't been updatin this. I LOVE Western an stuff, it's kewl. Not as many "dykes" or lesbos as many claim. But anyways.

TODAY in church I was put in an awkward position *ryt*. See I usher an so does my "future" significant other *lolz* LJ. So they put me on post so we faced each other an it wuz so funny an he was tryin not to look my way but ME I'm sexy so how could he not *ryt*. They lyk to play "matchmaker" espeically, his cousin ummm, yeah Jay, *that's hiz name*

So my friend Chrissy in church she's not talkin to me. *Reminds me, I have to update character chart, YEAH* YEah becasue I'm friends wit Jay and his sis Ravy. She's a CLOWn an I care? NOPE. Stuck-up iz the word. But thinking bout that iz not worth ma time.

*Something NEW* LJ: I called that boy did he answer? NO but everyone presses me to call him BUT I have no problem, *sounda CUTE on tha phone* cuter in person though. GTG peeps, Squimunks iz here now so hollla!

I'm outtie.

Nope............forgot something.

So, I went to Squimunks house today *to drop off something 4 her mom* an she was lyk "There he go!!" Me being SLOW, I thought it wuz her lil brother, mah Greggie-Poo BUT it wuz, YES that's ryt Guy. So Ichased him up the steps an ran in her room to see her brother ummm he's the middle boy, Teeth in hiz boxers. So I walked out. An saw mah GREGGIE-POO an guess what? I KISSED him. *yah* Squimunks tol me that when Guy saw me, his face waz like "OMG" an he ran up the steps!! FUNNY, *ryt*

But no here's the best part:

 HE ACTUALLY THINKS I'M GON GO THERE AGAIN WIT HIM? HELL NO.  I mean, maybe? Coz I'm stupid. Nope, YEah, Nope, YEah............hell, can't choose......?

So the question stands: LJ or Guy? Which one? Who knows? I DO!! But not yet.

So today, we didn't go to our church, we went to my stepdad's uncle's church. So after I finally dragged them out of the church, White Girl walked up to my house and off we went to The Maryland State Fair. It waz fun especially, the scopin out cuties fun. There were *excuse my french, if it offends you* white guys and black guys there that I wuz ya know checkin out. I mean interracial dating to me is jus apart of life, can't stop it so get used to it. I love it, it's nice. Would prefer it anyday. So it wuz fun today wuz jus great, kewl thas' good.

So I jus danced a lil an fried some french fries, coz I wuz hungry. I was also talkin to White Girl via Text Message, technology iz great. I love the Old Navy commercial.

"NO WAY, HISTORY I LOVE HISTORY! ONE THING HAPPENS, THEN LATER SOMETHING ELSE HAPPENS! SO SEQUENTIAL! THANK YOU FIRST GUY, FOR WRITING HISTORY DOWN! LET'S STUDY!"  That's how it iz.

I'm startin to think maybe I should get a pair.....................................

So today in church, we had this Youth Explosion an I wanted to go home soo bad. LJ wasn't there but I talked to him though. Even got those digits. BUt I wanna take it SLOW, rushin things doesn't make it better. When I got home, I comprmised calling him but as you can see I didn't. Maybe Monday? But I dunno how to put Guy into perpective anymore. Used to be that I liked to be thought of as the chic guys wanted but now it's jus I DON"T WANT it anymore. This is outrageous an crzy. But Guy lost hiz chance an love gives NO 2nd chances......................No wait, tit does but he won't?! So...........................umm, I really have nothing to talk about.

This is sick. I could dance all nite. As long as it's funky, funky, this rhythm, jus makes me hott. I'm like a junkie, I could dance all nite....................

I sit and wait does an angel comtemplate my fate. And do they know the places where we go when we're gray an old? Coz I've been told that salvation, lets their wings unfold. So when I'm lying in ma bed, thought's runnin through ma head and when I feel the love is dead, I'm lovin angels instead...................................................................

2morrow:

>goin to another church (yep heard ryt, I WON"t see LJ)

>then to state fair (White Girl iz gonna tag along, goody)

>then here 2 tell you what happened *awesome*

Well, there's jus one thing left to say at a time lyk this:

I JUS CAME TO GET MAH BEADS, JERRY! *THROWS UP SHIRT, FLASHES BOOBAHS, THEN EXITS*

Okay, so I'm not 2 happy.

I jus ate a gallon of freakin Vanilla Fudge Ice Cream, alone. Tell me what you think? It's not kewl. I can't dust it aside like it neva happened, cz it DID. An I jus have to face that shit. *LOOK AT IT*, tell it that it won't control you and your actions. *FAT* hah jus ate a gallon of ice cream what dew you think? Maybe not White Girl said the breyers is not fattening or something................................................................................

Puked. Shouldn't have eaten that gallon. JUS SAY NO, NO MATTER HOW DELICOUSLY IT MIGHT LURE YOU TO IT. *OOH, mah tummy hurts now, so I'm leavin*

OKAY! Life is chagin to fast for me.

I can't deal with this change any fuckin more. My ex likes me now! *huh* Chinky is now not my ex-best friend, BUT my enemy! An' White Girl has broken up with G-Clown, OMG they were supposed to last froever. Pretty damn fucked up*ryt*

An LJ I dunno, I think it wuz jus a phase, but I don't want it to be. I'm not happy anymore. WTF WTF I juz wanna smash her fat ass head in now an I shouldn't b fellin like this but I can't control me anymore.The shit she said! She meant it coz words lyk dat come from somewhere deep down not jus out of the blue *bitch* I hate her, man, fuc her. As far as I'm concerned I hope she gets her ass whipped GOOD.

EVEN IF IT'S NOT BY ME.

I feel so much more better.

Now the problem makes me even more sad then angry. I might consider taking Anger Management. My friends say I should *what do they know* but I *love* them. I feel so freakin jolly, 12:51 midnight. Don't know why? But I doesn't matter though, my happiness iz what's important to me. So screw IT! Happy. Happy, Happy look at me *bitches* I'm HAPPY. I'm very high on sleep deprivation. I deprive myself of sleeping, the net iz addictive.

Now I'm cold. I'll look back later and check out this blog an I will say WTF were you doin???! But now, it seems jolliful an shit so let me have my moment plz********************** ************************

*Thankz* Buh hye now! Luv yah, but I don't know ya, who cares?!

So I'm stuck.

I have Guy, then I have LJ. I like LJ, I even think I've got that 4letter word for him. But Guy, I don't feel 4 him anymore. I'm confused an' I jus broke up wit mah otha guy that LJ did know about. An' maybe Guy iz perfect 4 some rebound action, I mean that's what I was for him. Except for the action part. SO, I'm don't know. I think I really like LJ, jus the other day I reliezed I was planning our life *ewwww* I'm such a freak. But love sucs and it does the human heart NO justice.

Jus ready to forget this shit goin on NOw and get the shit scared outta me 2night wit White Girl. Jus this moment she is pullin her stuff out like toothpaste an all dat. She's get OAD (over-assesorizing disorder). AHHHHHH! I have to go before she starts explainin what kind of Pads she uses............................................................................

So my so called friend *Chinky* has dogged me bad. I neva knew it wuz lyk dat. She iz so 2-faced. I could slap the *shit* out of her. She's full of it. She jus frotned lyk we were friends neva knew tha bitch didn't lyk me. The reason I put this song on here. People can really make you fucin screw up ur day/ *bastards* Finally, my love triangle has reformed: *me* *guy* *LJ* My LJ likes me but so does Squimunks brother *Guy*. we dated but here goes:

 >we dated

 >he cheated

END.

Okay I know some of you are like who in the hell is Chinky, etc. So to make it easy I created a Cast Chart. It's right there on the right sideat the bottom:

Read on~~~~~~> :)

Listened to Eamon's vid *clown* earlier, neede something to laugh about. Sleepover to plan on friday so I have to get on that soon. There are like 9 girls comin, I think so?? My mom is gonna murk-out :)

Last night I YAHOO! conference chatted wit Chinky and Squimunks. I sat there will they were buggin coz their bois hadn't called them at all. But Squimunks left happy, Can-opener called her *yippee*. It was boring last night as all other nights. Have nothin to dew but add more crap 2 this blog.................................................

In my header pic *starting from left* Squimunks,Chinky, ME, White Girl. It was later in the day after we graduated *from the 8th* it was soooo emotional, EVERYONE (almost everyone) cried. I know I did :(.............

Well, DACU haven't been harassin Chinky lately. OH and in new news, THEY HATE ME! But who gives a flying rat's ass?? NOT ME. They actually tol Chinky to chose beenin friends with us, TPL, over beinin friends wit them.

Explanation:

TPL: The Pink Ladies aka Me Chinky, Squimunks, and White Girl

DACU: Dumb Ass Clowns United aka Haters

Well, I'm goin school shoppin, scopin out cuties.....................that reminds me..........................................

I'll die without the Olympics (arggggh). I luved the guys this year, seems though usually I wanted the girls flippin and doin high bar; until MR. Hormone kicked in. I loved the Speedos, their hott. The Hamm twins were awesome especially on anything that nvolved BARS. Had fun watchin the Olympics this year......................................................................:(

Sometimes, when I sit and think about my mom and dad's situation it scares me and saddens me. They fell in love when they were 18 and they got married and soon I came along. Then the marraige fell apart, quickly. Soon we were living with my grandparents and we went thourgh our 'hard times' just me and mommy.

I look at some of my friends with bothe parents there to watch them grow up to tell them it's okay and everything will be fine. And I hate that becasue I don't have that. My mom currently got married and I hated that and his family, but I've grown to love them. But it's not that easy coz I still need MY dad there.

I feel like I am sometimes just something that happened, nothing special. His dumb girlfriend, he's marrying her too. They are getting a house together, gonna have kids together. Just like a TV family with parents that split, BUTthis is the real life, no fairy tales.................................

Daddy runs a shop in Fells Point so we don't spend anytime 2gether and I hate that becasue I wanna spend time with him. NOT his girlfriend, NOT his dumb shop/ IT"S NOT FAIR. Life Sucks. I spend most time with my grandmother and she just wants to shop with me, which I like. Still life is out of my grasp and I can't control how I feel, what's gonna happen now and my fate, NO matter how much I want to.................................

When I was younger, I used to cry for him, but it never worked. I figured, if I cry for my daddy, then he'll come for me. BOY, was I wrong. He never came, that bastard. He's missing the best years of my life and looking at it now, the hell with it.....................I hate this..................I hate him.

I HATE THEM FOR THIS, I LIFE FOR CHANGING, I HATE EVERYTHING. But in a way I LOVE everything. I'm happy with me and my life, I just wish daddy wouldn't go.

So, good morning. Another beautiful day to start over with a clean slate. So here's the deal, my friend Chinky is REALLY being persecuted by her so called friends,DACU, and I love her like my flesh and blood sister and I hate what's happening to her. See me and Chinky have been through hell together almost fought each other, but in the end we never stopped caring for one another. But right now, soo much fuking stress is being put on her and I wanna beat the shit out of all of them. They are so 2-faced and their bitches about everything. DACU won't live up to their word and they don't know how to dish shit out and take it bac. Coz these are clowns I had problems with before becasue they put their mouth in other people's shit. They even THREATENED to beat Chinky up and when I heard that I told them bitches bring how they want it coz I would fight 4 Chinky. I hate fighting, becasue I'm a really nice person to get along with BUT if you act like your hard and you are 2-faced an shit I will have to beat your ass lik you stole something. Right now, I jus need 2 get away and I really feel 4 Chinky coz we are like family, I mean they are sooo mean to her. DACU called her mom RACIST and SLUTTY and one of them said she was a "LUCKY IMMGRANT" I hate shit like that and I'm just waiting to see them on the streets. But I KNOW I need to keep a clean slate so I can focus more on school and my career but teenage years are hell and pimples :( that sucs.

Like my music added it last night. I'm outtie 4 now be bac lata.